Heather

a.k.a Maevan



My name is Heather. I'm 25 years old, born on June 12th in Barrie, Ontario. I am an honours graduate of the College of Humanities program with a double minor in History and English Literature at Carleton University. For the last few years I've been working in the administrative/clerical world, though I dream of one day owning my own business. I claim to be bilingual, but in fact, I've lost most of my french vocabulary over the years. I have smatterings of Russian and Japanese down. I'm a mutt of Scottish, Irish and Ukrainian descent, known thanks to my father who is greatly interested in our family history.

I come from a large and complicated family. I have two sisters, two brother, loving parents, five nephews and three nieces. Doesn't sound very complicated? I don't want to get into the nitty gritty of it all, but I'll bring it down to this: One of my nephews is two years older than me, my dad's ex-wife is a close friend and member of the family, I don't consider my half-siblings half siblings at all (they are my sister and brothers. Period). My family means the world to me. I'm lucky that we are all so close. We're strong together, overcoming many serious obstacles. This past September, my father passed away suddenly of a massive heart attack. On top of this, over the last two years alone both my mother over came breast cancer, my father overcame lung cancer, and my brother Mike over came colon cancer. Right now my Mum is fighting bone cancer, with the entirety of the Sutherland clan behind her. We stand strong together, and in honour of my father, we fight harder and hold each other up.



I'm currently in a very happy relationship with a wonderful man named Patrick. He says we've been together since 2000, though I think it's 2001. Either way, it's been many years now. We were off and on in 2004, but since February '05 we have been stronger than ever. He is my partner in crime, my source of strength and calm. He recently recieved a diploma for computer programming and is working at a hospital. I am very close with his family, and he with mine.We may seem like very different people, but we compliment each other extremely well. I have never been happier and spend lots of my time dreaming about our future together. In May of 2007, Pat bought a house in Barrhaven. In June, I moved in. Together, we live there with our two cats, Cole and Byron, our two snakes, Salazar and Pele, and our German Shepard, Maddie. We have never been happier.

Pat and I, Fall 2006


On November 18th, in the comfort and warmth of our home in Barrhaven, he made me the happiest woman in the world by proposing to me. We plan to marry on September 18th, 2010. Here is our wedding webpage for those interested.


I'm a romantic, an idealist and sometimes a pessimist. I believe there is a reason for everything. I love the mysterious and the beautiful. I believe in magic. Faith is important to me. I am constantly developing my beliefs through research, experience and faith. Music and friends get me through the day. I love learning about other cultures. I love travelling. Folklore, mythology and fantasy interest me like very little else. I love to read, though I wish I could write. I'm hard on myself and my body. I've been struggling with my self-image for years. I want to be beautiful, inside and out. I love dressing up. I hate sleeping alone. I have been in love, for real, three times. I want to learn to play the guitar and the piano, to dance and to sing. I want to be fluent in many different languages. I want to see the world. I value tact, honesty and respect a great deal. I love storms. I toss and turn in my sleep. I'm a sensual being. I used to sleepwalk and sleeptalk. I wish I was better at photography. I am a major procrastinator.

I dream in vivid colour. I almost always remember my dreams. My dreams are all over the place. Not just nightdreams, but lifedreams. In general, I just want to be happy. I daydream about living like Amelie, or, of owning a cottage in the woods of Quebec, Nova Scotia or New Brunswick. I dream of finding my true love and of having children (two boys and a girl). I dream about being a teacher, or owning a store, or maybe a cafe, or having a farm. I am full of doubt and hope. I am a gemini for sure, a living contradiction at times. Two personalities tied into one. I don't know where I'm going or what I really want to do.

I've lived in Ottawa most of my life, though I was in Winnipeg for 4 years at the very beginning when all I could remember was snow. I'm a scholar at heart (or a professional student as my friends would say), always looking for the lesson in everything. I'm a so-called artist, though I prefer to say that I just love creating things. I knit, I paint, I sketch and I sew. I'm a pagan, for lack of a better name.

I have three piercings, my ears and my nose. I currently have two tattoos though I want several more. My current tattoos are: Our family motto "Sans Peur" in Gaelic on my shoulders which matches the same on Tracy, my sister. A honey bee on my right wrist, symbolizing my triumph over a cancer scare, and the family coming together to get through hard times.


The tattoos that I'm considering include some cherry blossoms on my stomach, a feather behind my ear, a traditional gypsy head on my thigh, a floral piece on my armcap/shoulder, three plants representing my heritage (grain for Ukraine, Clover flower for Ireland and a Thistle for Scotland), and something craft related.

I'm attracted to those who dare to be different. I wish I had the courage and the funds to do the same. I'm a geek at heart. I love anime (Rurouni Kenshin, Sailor Moon, Tenchi Muyo, Ranma 1/2, Witch Hunter Robin, Vision of Escaflowne), manga (Blade of the Immortal, Rurouni Kenshin, anything by Clamp, Ah Megami-Sama), comic books (The sandman series by Neil Gaimen, Lenore, and Johnny the Homicidal Maniac), computers, videogames, web-design and roleplaying (specifically World of Darkness by White Wolf pre-2.0 :P). I flipflop between a love of decadence and simplicity. I constantly need change, despite my love of comfort-zones. My hair is naturally golden blonde, but is currently reddish-brown. My eyes and my lips are my favourite features. I want a exotic themed bedroom. I love the colours red, green and blue. I used to hate gold, but am now embracing it. I read Tarot cards and do cartomancy readings. Ouija boards make me nervous. I adore food and eating, though I don't like excessive amounts of bread. For instance, I remove half of a hotdog bun when eating hotdogs and I don't like huge pieces of bread for my subs or hamburgers. I almost never eat my crusts (including pie or quiche). I like bite sized food and will almost always cut my food down until it is bite sized. I like smelling good. I don't like my teeth.

Just the facts:
Status: I less than three Patrick
Maevan?: Maeve-an. Pronounced "Mai-van". To be like the Celtic warrior goddess Maeve or Madb/Medb/Meadhbh. Direct translation: To be like she who intoxicates.
Nicknames: Heatheroo, Heterosexual Lifemate, Witchie-poo, Hezza, Bucket, Ophelia, Lestat, Aunty Christ, Kitty, The Little Faery, Mae, Maevan, Sakura, Little one, the celt, Heza, Heath etc....
Music I Can't Live Without: Tori Amos, Goo Goo Dolls, the Amelie soundtrack, Moist, Sarah Harmer, David Usher, Neko Case, Kathleen Edwards. I'm really big into folk/country/rock/bluegrass/blues right now.
Favourite Movies: Amelie, Twilight, Brotherhood of the Wolf, Shall we dansu (the Japanese foreign film), Moulin Rouge, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, 10 Things I hate about you, Borne Identity, Army of Darkness, Monty Python Search for the Holy Grail, Harry Potter, The Last Unicorn, The Princess Bride, Great Expectations, The Crow, and many more.
Favourite Books: "Forests of the Heart", "Someplace to be Flying", "Memory and Dream", "Moonheart", "Moonlight and Dreams" all Charles de Lint. "The Last Unicorn" Peter S. Beagle. "Last Call" Tim Powers, The Book of Lost Things, The Griffin and Sabine series by Nick Bantock. "American Gods", "Neverwhere" Neil Gaiman, the Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon.
Dislikes: Liars, disrespect, addictions, hypocrites, weakness, whiners, my thighs, lack of originality, immaturity, closed mindedness, Math, betrayal, breaking promises, feeling powerless, my low selfesteem.
Loves: Music, art, recieving real letters and/or thoughtful gifts from people, pumpkin pie, candlelight, storms, hot baths, laughing, flirting, hugs, long trips, eating out, literature, history, philosophy, friends, family, cats, alternative/original/artistic styles, corsets, honesty, massages, amber, flowers, silver, chivalry, mysterious people, dark hair and dark eyes, trench coats, new crayons and markers, rain, forests, romance, travel, so much! Family, friends, see above!

For more random facts about me, here are 100 Things About Me.

If there is anything else you'd like to know, feel free to contact me.
UPDATED: February 2009

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